Numb I stand under the blast of the shower Hoping the pressure will strip the numb away But the pounding water on my skin only drives it deeper in The blade makes my skin leak rubies that I don't really need So I try to force things like 'love' and 'compassion' Into the space left behind but they only fall out again And all that's left is more room for 'pain' and 'sorrow' To grow and leave me feeling bloated with 'agony' Painkillers call to me, trying to convince me that everything hurts But I ignore them while I pity them because They're only trying to fulfil their purpose, And without their purpose they'd only be empty capsules of sugar With no other reason than to rot the teeth that you Smile so prettily through Contact with others always left me drained and unable to release any more; They just don't see what they're doing to me. It's my heart, damn it, give it back so I can Entrust the needle and thread to someone else Who's better at putting me back together You're too willing to open up to me and trust me, Because I'm so devoid of secrets that you Fill me up with yours and skip away unburdened while I struggle with your baggage, but then I always was stronger than you